Sunday, December 28, 2008

beaver moon syrah

yesterday we went down to The Land ... Louie and Mark & Bill bottling the syrah. The wood oven blazing. The smell of wet bay trees and burning oak  the dark red stain of the wine on hands and faces  red teeth  river teeth . Lots of local folks helping , all the Land families visiting for Christmas , stopping by, lending a hand, wine poured into Sponge Bob Dixie cups, the little ones, the ones you give to small children, the assembly line of friends pitching in to fill bottles cork the bottles wipe off the bottles pack the bottles onto the palette they go... beautiful clean white boxes filled with red nectar the first syrah at the winery another new name again.


The river is swollen from these recent storms it's color of a cloudy emerald the willows and alders still in their autumn foliage golden leaves bright yellow leaves shimmy on the near barren trees off to the orchard nick's apple trees bare though even now after christmas a few apples rotting on the ground below. the scent of wet meadow grasses and wild mushrooms and wet wood in Louies shop.

I made pizzas ..with sausages cooked right next to the fire, in the wood oven, Denise asks " how do you know when the oven is hot enough? " and I reply, " when it burns the hair off your fingers" and I think the rainy weather made the dough come out better than ever or maybe it was the conviviality or the Beaver Moon syrah or Louie's infectious joy. I arranged the hot molten pizzas on a slab of weathered barn wood , Denise took the slab to the winery and all ate, heartily , cheese dripping on to red stained fingers.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Tea & Jesus



Tea.....today is your birthday. you&jesus tho it is said he was born in june. you who
can craft a poem of water vapor and an old tire abandoned by the side of the road,
you who understands the language that craggy mountain tops speak. you who can 
see through stones&
veils and filaments translating a squall a birdsong a sorrowful glance into this strange speak
we speak  this english. you fashion arabic script from newsprint and archaic fonts and enchanted old type.
you know things Tea that we mere mortals can only speculate wearing the hat of a poet
however you&jesus saints resident in greatness in huge compassionate heart in love
greater than man.

happy birthday my tea cup...from me & Rosie on Christmas morning

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

smoke water glitter

xmas eve. 


it blew a gale all day. power out. quiet mountain.
creeks enlivened by torrential waterflow
the horsetail along the bank budding
uncomfortable rhododendrons blooming out of season.

 now i offer the smoke of sweetgrass to the rain spirit
to the watershed spirit the mountain spirit i burn madrone from this land
to heat my home and i kneel in humility to the raven couple cooing and feeding 
 manzanita berries to each other as they sat on the rail in a gale
and took one berry mouth to mouth followed by a riffle of head feathers
a swoosh of wind
i gave them eggs for their christmas dinner.
i pray for peace on our beautiful earth &
i pray for my own heart to heal.


Monday, December 22, 2008

A poem for 5 dollars

at our local 4th of july school picnic , Writers Extrordinaire, Carolyn Cooke and Randall Baptkis
invited me to join their booth,  A Poem for 5 Dollars.
This hippie couple came up to me and asked me for 2 haiku about cannabis. Here they are.
Funny, I don't even smoke. But dug up the muse from days gone by.

#1
We smoked a joint together
You laughed in the most fabulous
Way.

#2
Who gave you that pot
it was so strong
we hardly
spoke


Sunday, December 21, 2008

the return of the light

solstice arrives . on wings of torrential rain pounding the tree canopy. pounding out the dark
days morning arriving in the dark and evening coming too soon.
the maples still hold their blazing red foliage, as if clutching a wool coat close.
it is now winter but the garden is still speaking the language of fall.

last night i dreamt i jumped from a plane, and i fell and i fell and i kept falling, with no
bottom, no landing in sight. and at some point, i switched my identity from the falling body,
to the vigilant ground spotter, looking up from a target painted on the ground, waiting for 
the jumper to land, but no one landed and i changed persona from the jumper to the spotter, back and forth, over and over, til the pounding of the rain, and the beckoning of the Solstice, ( o and the coffee) woke me.

Friday, December 19, 2008

the huge gorgeousness of all things painful

Leaving Mill Valley

In the evening all the crows come to roost in a large eucalyptus tree across the canyon, they seem to come in from the east in big flocks in big swirls of black wings as if the dinner bell rang and they are coming home to eat.

Walking the summit road this morning meeting a woman named Nancy and her donkey Jackson who would not budge from the driveway of an old woman they used to visit, she died many years ago and he still stops there and waits to go down to her house.

A crow lands on the church steeple cross with the glow of the sunset reflecting off the stained glass windows.

Packing glasses in newspaper I brought from Point Arena, redolent with the fresh ganja leaves
that fell into my kitchen sink.

The pregnant spider hanging by a thread on the outside of the window.

The tender particles of grief.

Tonight on Throckmorton Avenue, a small boy plays a railing in front of a day spa, as if he were playing a symphony on a piano, while his father mops the sidewalk.

A strange black dog peeing on a rock at the end of Tamalpias Road, as I bore myself to the vortex, praying to be healed.

Wet fall leaves stick to the glass of my windshield.

The tiny mouse in my office who will not succumb to the trap.

Thinking of christmas lights at truckstops.

The quiet cutting.

Crazy flippy swirly cloudy things above the Bay Bridge at dawn.

My indelible soulfulness.

the refracted light