The Volcanic Muses & Other Stories
random thoughts, images and observations
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Venus conjuncts Pluto in Capricorn
Last night I dreamed I rode a child’s red bike up a suburban street where I came upon your
home.
The facade was faced in stone flanked by bright green walls the color of pistachio ice cream,
the entry was made of old redwood and there was a small bench with shoes nearby, a mat, a potted plant , leaded glass in the door.
I did not ride by closely as I feared I would see you there.
I would have to face you see you face your face again.
Several nights before this I dreamed we made love inside an oak tree
covered in shimmer( us ) as if we suddenly became moonlight.
Three years have passed now come and gone . I had not dreamed of you in nearly a year
then
here
you
are.
are.
this doorway
that shimmering
your memory
now
all the healing and moving forward has fallen behind
all the healing and moving forward has fallen behind
I feel like I have to start over again
find new pujas new trails/cells/language/ seed pod/ new skin and bone.
To have to continue to be this quiet about it all grows callous and impossible in my hands
my exiled heart longs for the dreaming
my blood craves new marrow my heart, new meat&
salt.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Friday, July 29, 2011
Monday, June 6, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
Venus conjuncts Neptune
You will never know how many times I called out to you baby in this deluge
I did a beat down in the watershed
I
among the lichen
did puja
sustenance
symbiosis
I wrote your name on a piece of wakame I foraged from the San Andreas fault just before she breaks open
I make shoes of wild nori
I drink the tide and the seafoam as if it were a fine stout
I will never stop loving no I never will foolish as that may seem.
If we make our hearts hard against those who loved us we will die a dry abandoned cardboard box empty & ungrateful
How about these tides
?
how about the birds now quiet as Spring arrives drowned in despair and astonishment .
?
how about the birds now quiet as Spring arrives drowned in despair and astonishment .
River. Swollen. Crested.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Chiron Enters Pisces
How will I ever settle down with the creek bed dry as a bone in February the
last gasp of
trickle&splash.
The river green and still as emeralds?
The winds arrive as if to ignite some ancient old bloody cut, you know, the one that never healed, you know, the one that festered for years, infected, pestered, itched.
I would soothe myself in the falling water of the creek
filling it’s crevices and tangle of rotted oak and squirrel bones with my grandmother’s jewels and the discarded feathers of Raven.
I offer this watershed my tenderness&wishful thinking
a garland of carnelian a garland of sandalwood beads
those waxy bags filled with opium poppy seeds that bloom the color of my blood and the
regal purple of my lineage.
regal purple of my lineage.
The winds arrive cranky and determined more fierce than my heart can bear
more tenacious
than my sorrow.
more tenacious
than my sorrow.
True,
they will win our ongoing argument this time.
True,
I will run back to that burned out faery stand deep in the canyon.
True ,
there may be no water now.
Friday, January 14, 2011
venus in sagittarius
On each one of my fingertips I hold a lyric.
You.
You.
my Tempest,
my Hell on earth,
my Pomegranate,
my Popscicle. yep. my Lollipop. You know about this.
my Tempest,
my Hell on earth,
my Pomegranate,
my Popscicle. yep. my Lollipop. You know about this.
I saw the Raven pair capture Finch eggs and fly North.
I now realize that all life , Dies.
You, my Compost. My mycelium. My Detritus. White Boy.
There now, quiet.
There will be a sparking, the water will recede. ( i promise.)
Rosie and I took 14 Alder sticks, wrapped an Old Growth Redwood Stump
In SpanishMoss and wove in the flotsam and jetson of slash.
I took my veins and filled them with creek water. yup.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Feather
There was this thing that happened.
Life took off my flesh my meat my blood my nerves my filament
moss&lichen replace marrow
being awake replaces being taken.
being awake replaces being taken.
50 ravens.
Throwing up my/wings/ arms.
Astonished.
Bats.
flippy floppy swishy swooshy I’ll never forget those things that happened
the difference between deep green and black is now
the difference between watershed&vein.
You.
Never.
Coming.
Going.
No.Yes.Maybe.
Never
hymn,
not now. not
ever.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
ode to margaret goldsmith
Intrinsic coolness.
The very tiny tips of maple leaf caught on fire.
Flame
Cliff dwelling dashed for mountain top
Sunset dashed for the sea the color of a pearl
you know what ?
I once thought I knew everything or at least something
anything
but now no now
life
bears
haphazard
fruit
figs
the color of persimmons
offspring disguised as birds of prey.
you know what ?
I once thought I knew everything or at least something
anything
but now no now
life
bears
haphazard
fruit
figs
the color of persimmons
offspring disguised as birds of prey.
this.
The upanishads become oracle&salt becomes blood here this here.look.
“”When people depart from this world, it is to the moon that they all go. By means of their life breaths the moon swells up in the fortnight of waxing, and through the fortnight of waning it propels them to new birth. Now, the moon is the door to the heavenly world. It allows those who answer its question to pass. As to those who do not answer its question, after they have become rain, it rains them down here on earth, where they are born again in these various conditions — as a worm, an insect, a fish, a bird, a lion, a boar, a rhinoceros, a tiger, a man, or some other creature — each in accordance with his actions and his knowledge.” — Kausitaki Upanishad
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Riverview Apogee
Do you remember how the trail that switchbacked up to the quartz mine seemed to have gone on for miles didn't it ?
Then like an explosion !Kablooey! a quarry
of gilded and luminescent stone about faced us as if it were a temple.
Then like an explosion !Kablooey! a quarry
of gilded and luminescent stone about faced us as if it were a temple.
Golden alder leaves shimmy like sequins on the dress of a Parisian chanteuse.
We danced to the songs of
We danced to the songs of
Fortuny
Lao Tzu Black Elk &the Pixies
Lao Tzu Black Elk &the Pixies
Acropolis Eames Gaudi
Stonehenge Chartres Altamira
Vortex Filament lysergic
Bride descending the Staircase fragment/broken glass
Psychokiller.
Black mica shards cut through my sandals.
I crush the quartz in my teeth as if it were ice.
I crush the quartz in my teeth as if it were ice.
I once trusted the whiteness (&the wilderness) but now know that darkness was there, wasn’t it?
Not in the mica but in the caverns of glistening rock.
Not in the mica but in the caverns of glistening rock.
My heart was tender as a mountain peak.
Your's was an alder staff gliding along the river like an otter foraging for salmon.
Your's was an alder staff gliding along the river like an otter foraging for salmon.
I have replaced my blood with the green of reflected pools and sink holes.
My hair has grown mossy and wicked.
You'll live happily ever after now
as I remain here
as I remain here
on this hilltop
you
once
hung
your hat on.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Saturn enters Libra
Rolled up all tight like that at the foot of Ana Purna,
Saturn throws his outer rings like a ring toss game at a carnival up
and over the summit.
and over the summit.
me ? a cup half full&
A sow bug armored in grey ribbed shell,
chanting a Soul Coughing tune over and over again like a mantra.
Translating the Tibetan Book of the Dead into Arabic.
Covering my eyes with a pillow of mist .
Traveling this last path as I grab handlfuls of huckleberries off tender limbs.
I set the bar to match 14 thousand feet where peak meets heaven where
the finest gasses of atmosphere shift
and change into soulfulness.
and change into soulfulness.
Chanting down Babylon&
rocking back &
forth
the pingy pangy sound of the tap of my foot
against the glass door that separates us
from our fate.
from our fate.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
The song the fogbank sang to me
I drive to town today in torn brown sweatpants covered
in chicken manure&olive oil
in chicken manure&olive oil
listening to Peter Case and a fierce banjo
chewing the ganja hash from my fingernails
astonished that my creeks are still flowing water
repentant for all the sins and aberration inflicted by my flawed crappy dreams and ideals
chewing the fat from my guilt&self doubt
chewing the finally I am getting pissed finally from my fingernails but it's that plaintive&
plucky tune that made me stop by the side of a road to photograph a crumpled up paper bag lying on the broken yellow line of highway one.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
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